A Beautiful Journey
I, like many people, have often wondered what my purpose in this life is. I don't "feel" like a makeup artist, or a beauty blogger, or a YouTuber for that matter. Hell, I'm a wife, a mother of two, I live in the Midwest, rarely wear makeup (and if I'm being completely honest) have a regular wardrobe rotation of the best yoga pants Old Navy has to offer. I have this picture in my head of what I'm "supposed" to look and act like in order to be a success in this industry, but no matter how hard I squint in the mirror, I never quite look like her.
I have spent hours scouring beauty blogs, Instagram, Youtube, and every other social media outlet I can get my hands on. My journey always starts out with the intention to find inspiration for a project, but somehow always ends up with me beginning to doubt myself, my ability as an artist, and sometimes my value as a woman. I could never understand why I would start out excited and curious, but always end up feeling deflated and self-conscious. Was it just me? Was it what I was seeing? Was it the Universe's way of telling me I'm in the wrong business? For years, I could never figure it out.
Then... I turned 30! It was in that split second that I figured out the meaning of life, became completely comfortable in my own skin and stopped caring what other people think!
(Pauses to see if anyone else is buying this...)
No? You neither? Perfect.
Truth is, I turned 30 and realized I was still believing the altered reality. I was afraid of not being who I thought I "should be," instead of embracing exactly who I was, honoring myself, sharing my gifts and unapologetically speaking my truth.
The truth being... I'm really good at pretending I like myself. The difference now? I don't believe I'm the only one.
Finding self acceptance and love is a journey of a million miles. Unfortunately, we are all living in a world that inundates us with a false sense of reality which makes a difficult path even harder. I spend a good chunk of time with clients breaking the news to them that what they see in photos, isn't what will translate to real life. That a look, style, or person, frozen in time, filtered, photo shopped, and generally altered in every possible way, is not meant to be taken literally. It's an artistic expression, entertainment, or a means for inspiration. That my job, and greatest joy, is to find out who THEY are, see THEIR unique beauty, and bring that forth to celebrate.
When I'm finished with a client, there's this second where everything seems to stand still. I get to watch a woman finally see herself the way everyone who loves her always sees her - ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. Those moments are full of so much joy and excitement, it's a high I've come to seek over and over again. It doesn't need the right angle, Instagram filter, or fine lines and wrinkles blurred away in order to be perfect. It just is.
After watching over a thousand of these moments (at least), I began to realize THAT is the world I wanted to live in - for myself, my daughter and every other woman! A celebration of attainable beauty, and a space that cultivates confidence, acceptance and truth. So that's what I'm going to do here.
Now some of you may be thinking that preaching self love, while also giving women beauty tips is hypocritical, or that inner beauty and outer beauty are mutually exclusive. I can tell you with 100% certainty... they're not. I have a sign on my desk that reads, "Happy women are the prettiest," and I truly believe that motto. I don't care if you are someone who wears zero makeup, or has to beat her face like Miss Fame before she'll leave the house. As long as you are genuinely HAPPY, that's all that matters. I hope to create and share a space that helps women learn to find their individual beauty - a tiny section of this web that cultivates confidence by providing as unfiltered a reality as possible.
I hope you join me on this journey, and that every moment you spend with me makes you smile harder, laugh louder, or run your a** to Sephora because we all know you "need" that new Anastasia pallet too.
All my love and lipstick,
Disclaimer: Please don't mistake this post for me suggesting there is anything wrong with what other artists, beauty bloggers, and YouTubers are doing. There's not. I truly believe there is room and the need for all types in this ever expanding world of beauty, and I applaud any and everyone brave enough to step into it!